In the summer of 2017, I had made a pact with myself. I promised myself to heal from my childhood trauma and to begin living an extraordinary life. A life filled with my passions, happiness and goals.
I made a promise with myself to always look at life as it is and make it into what I want it to be.
Looking at my life as a glass half full verses half empty.
This expression helps me view life through an optimism view verses a pessimism view. Optimism is having hopefulness and confidence, where pessimism is the opposite, thinking the worst.
Where do I begin? When is it the right time to start? How can I be successful? Who will support me?
These questions have been levitating in my head for over 4 years, as I continue on my journey and as I pass on some tips and tricks to you.
So here I am, reminiscing about the beginning, where I started...
I was at my lowest.
Stuck in an emotional rollercoaster with my adopted family and with someone I thought was my soulmate; while re-entering my birth families life, attending university full time and work 3 jobs...
Honestly I had a lot on my plate and we can talk about poor stress management in later articles.
The bottom line was... I flunking out of school. I was mentally unstable with the overwhelming loads of stress and it was affecting my learning.
School being my safe place, my happy place; failing wasn't an option! I wanted the chaos to stop. I wanted to finally fell happy and in control of my life.
Finally reaching my breaking point, this time in my early 20's, I had enough. That was my first step at being proactive about my life and the decisions I make.
I did have a choice and I choose me. I choose self-love and growth and healing.
I had reached the first step in my femininity journey. I didn't even call it a journey at this point. I called it an escape from chaos. I was ready for change. I was ready to restart my life.
And it did. I did it and blogged about it. This was the creation to Restart, now revamped to Restart with Keke (RWK).
It was the right step in my life to start over because I wanted to be emotional stable and I could admit that I was going crazy. I recognized what happiness looked like and realized that the shit show I was experiencing... Wasn't it!
The next step was coming up with a plan to follow through. It wasn't just enough to recognized I needed a change. I had to do something about it and I wanted to be successful at healing.